I keep thinking the darkness will dissipate and the oppression lessen so I can breathe more easily. You promise in 1Corinthians 10:13 that You will not give us more than we can bear but will provide the way so we can endure. Now I get it. This IS more than I can bear; the load is way too heavy and I feel it breaking me. And even though it is too heavy for me to carry, You desire for me to KNOW I am not asked to carry this alone. In fact, You offer to carry it for me. All this pressure is just an opening, a rather beautiful opening, deeper into You. Please enable me to pass and not remain at the opening struggling to try to do this very unsuccessfully on my own.