As I have had to review the history of my shoulder injury, I have been made aware of repeatedly ignoring some warning signs. As per my habit, as soon as the pain became bearable, I would go back to doing what is natural and “necessary” for me. This is so ingrained, I really was not even cognizant of this pattern. Very harmful behavior.

And of course, I hear the spiritual significance from You. How often have I pushed through broken areas in attempt to function in “normal” ways that are familiar to me; instead of allowing You full access to do the deep and painful healing in my damaged places? How often have I resisted the thorough, slow process of restoration and recreation, desiring instead quick and non disruptive flow to my life? Too often!!!

Being stopped short to be reminded of Your Lordship and Majesty and my desperate need for You has been nothing short of miraculous. May I patiently, compliantly and willingly remain on Your surgical table as You excise dead areas…and most likely not using anesthesia!