I am truly shocked by how quickly and insidiously I can get off track. My shoulder injury has caused my life to come to an abrupt cessation of action. And I am absolutely overwhelmed by Your Presence. When You walked the earth, You were surrounded by crowds, Your disciples…except in the lonely places with Your Father. And now You give us the unbelievable privilege of One on one time with You! Unlimited access to the Great and Awesome I Am! Intimate invitation to the Audience of the King of Kings! And yet I have often chosen to rush into the demands, squeezing a few moments in with You, but definitely running according to my own  agenda. FOOLISH!! UNWISE!! It becomes so clear; I have fallen again into the trap of running ahead of You. My natural bend is quick assessment, quick action. This was necessary, valuable and a natural fit for my many years of critical care nursing, even though You taught me how to depend on You in my career.  My ICU personality is a hindrance as I now walk out my days with You. When I am not willing to slow down to WAIT on You, I walk in my assessment and power which is useless and lifeless. This has been a very unpleasant lesson! Hebrews 12:11 warns of this; no discipline is pleasant at the time, in fact painful (AMEN!!!) however it produces an abundance of right living and peace for those who are trained by it. Please let me be trained by this, Lord!