I used to be so afraid of having to confess to You my many weaknesses and infractions. I would want to hide from You which would deceive me to regard the distance from You as a result of Your displeasure with me, and not my movement away from You. I feared Your anger, harsh treatment and withdrawal of love. I would be filled with shame, remorse and self loathing; but instead of feeling like I could bring these to You, I limply held them, allowing the enemy to wrap them around my heart until I felt like a lonely, abandoned orphan in the abyss of my choosing. My fault.

But slowly and time and time again, I have been overwhelmed by Your Grace. You have sought me in my ditches of self condemnation, gently and lovingly carrying me back to Your Heart. It has been and always will be, Your Cross that makes me right. I can be free, even eager to confess to You what You already know about me. And I can wait and anticipate with assurance and peace that You will change me because I sure can’t! YOU will finish in me what You have started. And no matter how ugly I get or choose, You are graciously convincing me- You love me always! Always. And always long to forgive and restore me–I just need to come to You in humble honesty to receive. Grace, mercy, peace, redemption, power, transformation—GIFTS You give me freely and joyfully. Wow.